Foot in mouth disease

i think we all have this one. right?! not that i have it at the moment, but maybe i want to have it? maybe i want to say things, but know that i cant say them? being caught between differing options/opinions/beliefs/strategies is so frustrating. knowing that i have something to finish but at the same time seeing my heart being twisted, and wanting so badly to get foot in mouth disease so that i can just have the pain relieved, i think would be nice. but i know this is wrong. i know that i cant. i have to wait. a little while longer...

God please help me through this